Yakisoba!!!

Sesame Street

2006-08-29T10:57:00.000+08:00

I get to see a lot of test results bloggers have been putting on their blog and I tried this one, I liked the "Me want COOKIE!" line :D

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.
You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.
You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking
How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

B-Z

2006-07-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

Gosh! April pa last post ko?! Pak shet yun ah.

I've been so busy since the last month and I feel a little down that's why I haven't had any new post. Well I've been blessed to have event shoots again since June so I had some extra money to pay the bills and do a little shopping. But I'm a little bothered because I don't like my shots lately. Ang papanget eh. I think I'm burned out already, I think I need to go out of town and recharge my creative juices. I really don't like my shots lately, they are so flat, when I started with events photography I know how to make a plain event look nice but lately I can't seem to do it anymore and I don't know what to do. Maybe being bored and demotivated with my office work contributes to this situation I am currently in. I feel so weak because I wanna transfer to a new work and I haven't found a new company that fits with my um... idea of a nice office. Actually I have found one already and they have yet to call for my final interview and they're like taking forever. Right now I want to transfer to a new company that would provide me with a lot of growth and opportunity to learn new techs. When that happens I could be settled and feel secure and hopefully with this positive vibe I would be able to shoot nice pictures again.

Oh the title of the post is B-Z so I have to at least make this match with it so here goes... I've been busy looking for a new company and I have been taking a leave almost every week just so I could go to interviews and tests. I have also been shooting events again, going to work so I wouldn't get fired, contacting my high school batchmates and plan for our high school reunion, going to Bene again because the retreat season has started, go home early so that I could take care of my sisters and lastly meeting with a new client for an IT raket. That's why I don't have the time to go to the gym and my zips class. I feel so stressed I need a massage :(

April Bora trip

2006-04-27T15:58:00.000+08:00

I went to Bora last weekend and it was fun but very tiring and bitin. I left the office around 4pm Thursday afternoon to meet my church friends at Jollibee Alabang and we were able to leave around 5pm. We arrived at Batangas port around 7pm and took the 8pm trip of Montenegro Lines going to Calapan. We arived at Calapan around 1030pm and took a van going to Roxas Mindoro, this was a 2 hour trip since driver doesn't slow down, maybe he's constipated. We arrived at Roxas port around 1am and boarded the StarLite Roro that will be leaving by 3am. Last year we arrived at Roxas around 2am and there were no more seats so this time we thought we would be able to seat but alas there were no more seats so we had to settle on the floor and spread out our sarongs so we could lie down. Around 5am I went up the ship so I could watch the sunrise but there were a lot of clouds so the sun was a bit high already when we saw a glimpse of it. We reached the Caticlan port around 7am and took a banca to Boracay island. I was a bit excited because I wanna see how the island looks like during peak season and I was not disappointed because it was packed with people and you could just feel the vibe and energy around :)
For our first day we just settled down and ate lunch at Jasper's and after that we had our island hop. The island hop was just so-so, the only part I liked was the stop at Puka beach where we had our pictorial. I had dinner at Shenna's with my college friends and watched the MTV Summber Break bikini contest because my friend was a contestant. Since everybody was tired from the trip they all went to bed early so I was alone and I just walked the white beach to Friday's and just chilled.
For my 2nd day I woke up around 6am and walked along the beach while zipping. I saw my college friends and we walked up to station 1 where we took some more pictures. We had our breakfast at Jonah's so I ordered my favorite banana choco peanut shake and a sandwich. This made me so full that I had my lunch around 3pm at Jonah's again, this time I ordered a mango banana and a sandwich. My college friends and I also tried the banana boat and after that I went to Bamboo cottages to have a dinner buffet with my church friends. The lechon was so delicious sobra! After dinner we just prepared for the Hed Kandi party that night. We watched the fire dancers first at Aria before going to the Hed Kandi party. My college friends got bored because it was already 12am and the party still hasn't started so they went to their rooms already. I stayed with some other friends until 4am before I called it a night. The party was ok, I really love house music and there were a lot of celebs at the party.
For our 3rd day we just relaxed and did a lot of swimming and some shopping at D'Mall. I bought a pair of thai pants and to add to my collection a pair of chopsticks :) I had my siesta and prepared for some pictorial by the sunset but I overslept so we were not able to do some sunset pictorials. I accompanied my college friends to the buffet so they could taste the lechon, we had a little chat before we went out to look for some kerosene because I wanted to try my friend's fire zips but we couldn't find any so I was majorly disappointed that just pulled my energy down and so I just went to the room to watch the launch of PBB Teen Edition. After watching it I went to bed na because we had to leave early the next day.
So it was really bitin because there were some activities I wasn't able to do and I really wasn't able to rest at all. Here is my tan and I so like it but I'm alredy starting to peel so I think I need to get back to Bora, pronto! :)

PUTANGINA!

2006-04-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

PUTANGINA!

FFS!

2006-04-11T16:11:00.000+08:00

I am Freakin' Fuckin Stressed here at the office!!!! I just got a new set of goals for the team, as if there's such a thing as a team eh I am the only one who does the porting tasks because my teammates have other priorities. These goals messed up the goals that we have set last week, like my officemate would say "Bastusan ng goal". I think I'm hyperventilating, I need to keep my cool because my hands are shakin as I am typing this. I think I am doing the work of 3 people that's why Im a little freaked out. Imagine that you need to know almost 500 cellphone models from different manufactureres and their specifications like screen size and MIDP versions, plus you need to know if a certain application has been done for that phone and we have 5 applications, can you do the math? I think my brain is not kulot anymore :(
I think I will be zipping when I go home tonight and I really need the Bora vacation next week...

So to stop this negativity I'll do what my friend does on her blog and list down...
5 things that I should be thankful for today
- ah... I can't think of any right now, maybe I'll try this tomorrow

P.S.
I miss my iPod, I left it at home :(

Work abroad? Nah!

2006-04-06T09:30:00.000+08:00

I am a bit upset ok... no, I'm mad and irritated. Why? Because my mom told me last night that my Kuya would want me to shoulder half of the tuition fee of my sister and he will take the half. Confused din ako, bakit 50-50 kami? He is the one working in Dubai, he is the one who is earning a lot bigger than I am earning and dalawa pa sila ng wife niya dun. Ok his defense would be he has a family so he sends his money to the Philippines to sustain their house here and for the basic necessities of their daughter and his in-laws. My defense would be I shoulder ALL the expenses at our house like food and utilities so we could have the same expenses. It's not that I don't wanna help my sister, it's just that my money is just enough right now for those responsibilites, I am just not ready financially on taking on a new one like the tuition fee and my sister's allowance, gosh! Although I earn a little extra from photography I don't wanna count on that because it's not a regular thing. Also I can't help but wonder that eventhough I have these responsibilities I could still buy some photography equipments, plan for out of town vacations and take on hobbies, that's hobbIES, its plural. If they could present me a good argument on why I should leave the country then I will stand by my argument... why would I work abroad if it seems as though I could shell out the same amount with someone who is earning a different currency?

Zip sad

2006-03-30T17:56:00.000+08:00

Haaay... it's Thursday and supposed to be me zips class kami tonight kaso sobra daming gigs ng instructor namin kaya walang zips class this week. Ok lng if wala today pero wala din sa weekend :( eh gusto ko pa naman matuto ng new moves. Good thing there's this site www.homeofpoi.com where I could learn new moves so I think I'll try to learn a new one when I get home tonight.

Zipping

2006-03-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

I've been studying Zips for a month now and nakaka-addict siya. I usually attend the Thursday class at Bel-Air pero since nabilang ko na konti na lang meetings na puwede ako mag-attend before I go to Bora I decided to take the Saturday class at Valle Verde and I'm still thinking of taking the Sunday class. Usually after I learn a move ng Thursday I practice it during weekends. Ok siya kasi nakaka pawis talaga and nakaka tone ng shoulders so very good exercise talaga. Well I can't wait to do fire on my 6th or 7th module. Pag ganun mag post ako pic of me doing fire zips kaya for the mean time eh typical zips muna and our "class picture" with our instructor Paulino (guy wearing Zidjian black shirt).

First wedding shoot

2006-03-20T15:57:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was very hectic for me because of some shoots I did. Around 9am of Saturday I
was on my way to The Fort for the BMW Xpo event and I just ate my breakfast on the bus. When I arrived I started taking the shots of the setup and the people looking at the cars. Mostly I took the pictures of kids running around because it's fun taking pictures of kids, uy d ako pedophile ha :) There was a BMW X3 in the middle of the room and it's connected to an automated lock and if you could guess the right combination you could bring home the X3, I didn't try it though.

Around 2pm I left for the wedding at BF, Parañaque. I took a cab which I don't normally do kasi kuripot ako :) So I met Patrick at McDo BF and went straight to his Lola's house to wait for his bride, Mean. When Mean arrived I just did some shots of her gown on the bed. Honestly I dont want to do a traditional wedding shot of the bride with her gown and chuvaness but I wasnt able to think of a different way to shoot it so I just did the traditional way. Ok lng first wedding shoot ko nman eh. On the actual wedding rites, medyo ok ako kasi alam nman natin kung ano sequence and medyo getting the feel of it already. Before we went to the reception I just did some shots with the couple. We did the shots on the parking lot of the church while cars are arriving for the evening mass, we were a bit conscious and we had to rush it. On the reception I just did the typical shots of the couple with the guests and the cake slicing thingy. All in all it was ok although all the time I was quite nervous. After the wedding I went to the PRM inuman at Noy's place. Saglit lang ako dun kasi I was so tired. Sunday, I thought I would be able to rest but around 4pm Cris called and requested me to go to The Fort for the BMW event. I just took some pictures of the automated lock being unlocked, siguro mga 30 minutes lang and that's it tapos na, around 7pm nasa ATC na ako uli. It was fun and tiring weekend and I am not complaining :)

PBB

2006-03-07T17:40:00.000+08:00

Medyo natutuwa ako sa Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity Edition kasi for me mas colorful yun personality ng mga housemates well siguro dahil kilala sila kasi mga celebrities. Minsan lang ako mag miss ng episode and sa office I always read the PBB threads at PEX. Well gusto ko si Bianca kaya parang gusto ko na sa Bene lagi magsimba kapag na evict na siya kasi dun daw yun nagsisimba ng 11pm, hala mag stalk ba daw :) Saka I think bagay naman sila ni Zanjoe kesa ni Lino though mas me future siya ata ke Lino. OK din si Keanna kasi panalo ang hirit niya kaso parang yumayabang siya lately. Ayoko ke Roxie at Rico, ang korni nila saka d daw dapat pinag-aaksayahan ng panahon yun. Si Rustom nman ok lng, minsan sablay hirit niya minsan oks lng. Si Gege at Aleck ewan, tagaroon ba sila o furniture lng? Isama na si Budoy at John na nagpapa cute lng ata dun.

Blogging

2006-03-07T17:24:00.000+08:00

Lately natutuwa ako magbasa ng blog ng iba kasi madami akong nakikita at natututunan so ni-review ko blog ko and pakshet 3 lng entries ko last year kasi naman busy-busyhan sa office . Kasi naging Porting Team Leader ako pero madali lang naman yun work mags chedult lang ako ng porting tasks saka ako din nagpo-port ng applications to different mobile phones. Tapos medyo naging busy din ako sa photography na I am so happy of kasi at least unti-unti nang natutupad mga pangarap ko. So balak ko buhayin ang blog ko kasi balak ko gumawa ng travelogue this year and magku-kwento ako ng mga pupuntahan ko saka maglagay na din ako ng picture. Syempre aaralin ko din pala mag-ayos ng web page kasi kahit IT ako eh hindi ako marunong, hindi ko nga alam kung paano maglagay ng picture sa post eh. Anyways, magpapakabit na ako ng net sa bahay para mas maaral ko kaya... abangan!

Lotto

2005-10-31T10:47:00.000+08:00

What if ikaw ang nanalo ng 89M sa Lotto...
Siguro upo muna ako at mag-iisip ng buong araw. Syempre lahat naman uunahin ang charity. Siguro yun 9M bigay ko sa 9 different charities pero primarily para sa mga bata ako magbibigay at scholarships. Scholarships kasi kahit hindi halata nung high school at college ako eh mahilig ako mag-aral. Basta gusto ko yun isang bagay eh ganado ako mag-aral. Para sa akin importanteng me alam ka sa mundong ito kaya gusto ko makapag-aral at makatapos ang mga batang merong pangarap at hindi kaya pag-aralin ng mga magulang nila.
Sunod siguro bahay, hindi sa Ayala o Forbes, hindi ko kaya yun association dues ng mga hinayupak na yun, ok na ako sa Cavite. Then ipapaayos ko yun bahay nmin sa Bacoor, dun kami lumaking magkakapatid at ayoko pabayaan yun eh, baka bilhin ko pa yun kapitbahay nmin para mas malaki house ng parents ko. Tapos bibili ako ng dreamcar ko na BMW Z4 para I'll drive around Alabang na naka top down, eh paki kung mausok basta me 1 million pogi points ako.
Tapos mag travel ako kasama family ko and unahin ko na agad ang Eurofe, with an 'F' mind you. Gusto ko makapunta sa France at pakinabangan ko naman ang kakaunting french na alam ko. Tapos London para puntahan ang mga palace dun at ang Stonehenge na din. Tapos gus2 ko puntahan ang castles sa Norway, ancient temples ng Greece, basilicas in Italy, windmills and tulips in Holland, taste the chocolates in Switzerland at madami pang iba. Syempre mag setup din ako ng business and for sure food related yun kasi mahilig ako kumain kahit hindi ako tabain. Tapos itutuloy ko din hobbies ko, like mag dog breeding ako, lahat ng dog breeds na pangarap ko nung bata ako bibilhin ko. Tuloy ko din pangarap ko maging artist via photography and graphic design at higit sa lahat ang pangarap ko mag aral sa CCA :)
Ikaw ano gagawin mo sa 89M?

PUNYETA!

2005-04-26T12:04:00.000+08:00

PUTANGINA!!!! I am so pissed off!!! D ko alam kung ano gagawin!!! ayoko na sa bahay pero alam ko na sasabihin nila na masama akong anak!!!! i dunno what to think. Lahat ginagawa ko para makatulong ng abot na makakaya ko sa bahay pero mali pa rin! Ang yabang ko daw pero ang liit lng naman daw ng natutulong ko pero para na daw kung sino ako kung umasta. Nagpapakahirap ako sa trabaho, rumaraket ako para me extra pang gastos pero yun pagpapalakad ko sa bahay mali pa din. Dati sinubukan ko na dedma approach yun kahit ano wala akong alam sa bahay pero papagalitan din ako, eh san ako lulugar? I just wanna be free, I want to live my own life....

Photoworld

2005-02-07T15:25:00.000+08:00

February 2003 umatend ako ng PhotoWorld Exhibit at ang dami ko nakitang magagandang pictures doon, tipong sabi ko sa sarili ko "Pano kaya nagawa yang mga yan", me isang picture doon na hindi ko makakalimutan. Black and White siya tapos front view ng isang Mercedes Benz sa left side ng picture at sa right side naman ay isang kariton na tinutulak ng isang bata na nakatingin sa driver ng Benz, ang kariton ay may malaking logo ng Mercedes Benz. Ang simple ng picture pero ang daming sinasabi at ang lupit ng dating. Sabi ko gusto ko din makakuha ng malulupit ng pictures na nagsasabi ng kwento at maka-capture ng emotion ng mga tao. Gusto ko din maging photographer...
That year nag enroll ako sa iba't-ibang photo classes. Nagsimula ako sa Basic Photo class sa Intramuros noong June 2003, 4 Sundays sya at every Saturday naman I was taking my French classes. Tawag sa akin ng mga officemates ko noon eh The French Photographer. Maganda pakinggan pero nakakapagod, araw-araw ba nman ako pumapasok noon kasi office kapag weekdays. On the 4th day merong photo contest, 2 categories: Portrait and Still Life (Glass). Nakapasok sa Top 10 yun still life entry ko out of 50 pictures so for me ok na yun. July 2003 nag enroll naman ako ng Advance class sa Intramuros pa din. Sa Advanced class tinuruan kami mag develop at puro B&W shots so we we're trained to see the world in B&W. On the 4th day me photo contest uli, 3 categories: Portrait, Still Life and Intramuros. YUn Portrait pinaghandaan ko talaga, yun Still Life ayoko non kaya bahala na lang tapos yun Intramuros yun dinevelop kong picture during the 1st day na lang yun submit ko. Bale 8 lng kami sa class kaya parang walang challenge (ang yabang!) So in short dun sa 3 categories nagkaron naman ako ng place so super happy ako kasi ako lng yun ganun na me 3 trophies pauwi kahit 8 lng kami. After that nag enroll ako ng Fashion and Portrait classes sa CCP. After these months naisip ko stop muna ako sa pag enroll and dapat i-practice ko na yun mga natutunan ko and pag feeling ko me mga nakalimutan ako or kelangan ko matuto uli eh saka na lng mag enroll uli.
February 2004 Photoworld ulit... Ngayon mejo me alam na ako at nagtitingin na ako ng mga camera. Yun test model ng Canon 300D eh sinubukan ko, nagustuhan ko sya at wishing ako non na sana magkaroon ako. Ikot lng uli at tingin ng pictures. Nakita ko pa si Ryan Agoncillo kasi he's also into photography. D ko sya binati kasi mamaya mapahiya pa ako no, eh nung nakita ako binati nya ako si nag hi na din ako.
February 2005 ano hula nyo? Syempre Photoworld na naman... Ngayon me Canon 300D na ako at tinitingnan ko yun mga pictures na d na masyado nakanganga, slight na lng saka yun iba nakakahirit na ako ng "eh kaya ko din yan eh" tapos hi-hello na sa mga photographers na kilala at friends doon. Tapos tingin ng mga gamit na alam ko na kung para saan, dati nagtataka pa ako bakit yun mga ilaw me payong ngayon alam ko na pano mag adjust nung mga ilaw.
February 2006... ewan ko, d ko alam... basta nararamdaman ko excited ako at takot ako... syempre pangarap ko to eh, minsan naiisip ko "me talent ba ako?" pero maisip ko din na "eh puta napapag-aralan naman yan eh, saka kung gus2 ko gagawin ko lahat para matuto at mag improve at tanggapin ang criticisms"... basta kung ano mang mangyari alam ko ok yun kasi d ako iiwan ni Superfriend.

Ummm...

2004-12-14T11:14:00.000+08:00

NATATAE AKO! WAAA!!! TAGAL NG LUNCH BREAK!

Boring

2004-11-11T15:51:00.000+08:00

Boring day at the office... patapos na ako sa Smartphone program ko kaya Im studying "How to port a Java program from a Nokia Series 40 phone to a Sony Ericsson T610" yak! so nerdy! Eh puyat ako last night kasi me binabasa akong Sword of Truth novel kaya inaantok ako. Im just seeing letters tuloy. So surf na lng para d masyado antukin like Bianca Gonzales' blogspot, nice ata pero ang haba saka ko na basahin. Surf ko din yun XMen 3, gus2 daw nila kunin si Sigourney Weaver as White Queen eh lam ko maganda yung character na un, d ata bagay sa kalbo un. Nabasa ko din reviews ng XMen Legends for PS2, haaay...sana makabili na ko ng PS2 para malaro ko un kasi walang PC version. Naku kung anu-ano na ginagawa ko sa pag-aantay ng uwian. Bukod sa mag surf eh mega text din ako at nangungulangot na nga ako sabay punas sa ilalim :D mukhang obvious na wala na nga akong magawa... sana uwian na kasi gus2 ko na matulog

Medallion

2004-10-22T10:31:00.000+08:00

Haaay, meron ba namang manghuhula na dala yun parents ko nung isang araw tapos tiningnan yun palad ko and sabi magiging successful daw ako sa gagawin ko at yayaman, parang ganun, gus2 ko sabihin "Duh! alam ko na yun no" yabang no pero alam ko nman na I dont settle for anything less and if I want something I get it. May motto nga ako eh "What Deneb wants, Deneb gets, what I can't get, I don't want" Tapos may mag-aalok daw sa akin ng drugs at tanggihan ko daw kasi kapahamakan lang daw un dadalhin sa akin non, eh di nga ako nagyo-yosi drugs pa saka alam ko nmang mali yun. Pero nagpasalamat pa din ako kasi reminder yun, minsan kelangan naman natin ng paalala. So pumasok na ako ng office. Tapos after a few days nag txt mom ko na umuwi ako ng maaga so I asked why and sbi nila andun daw sila sa house and minsan lang yun so sige uwi. Pagdating ko ng house wala sila kasi binisita nila yun apo nila and sabi ng ate ko kakausapin daw ako ng manghuhula. Asus! dala na naman nila kaya natulog na ako. Natulog sa amin yung manghuhula so bago ako pumasok ng office me ibibigay daw sa akin. So isip nman ako, kasi d nman ako naniniwal sa ganyan. Kay Superfriend at sa sarili ko lang ako naniniwala. Kumbaga alam ko kung ano mang mangyari sa buhay ko eh desisyon ko yun or ako may pakana non at si Superfriend. So papunta na ako ng office ng ibigay un medallion. Pagkita ko sbi ko "Bat si St. Benedict to?" Tapos sabi ng manghuhula I always pray to the Lord and San Benito for guidance and help sa anmung gus2 kong gawin. So pumoints sya dun kasi St. Benedict medal naman yun, pero gus2 ko sabihin na ang dami ko na hong ganito. Pero sige pa din sya so pagbigyan na lng. Pumayag na din ako kasi kahit pano wearing the medal, it's big ha, always tends to remind me to offer a silent prayer when ever I do something, kahit maliit na bagay. Tipong aalis ako ng house I touch it and pray "sana ok biyahe ko at ok mga iiwan ko sa house", tipong tatawid ako eh I pray "Sana d ako ma aksidente", tipong mag gym ako "Sana mabuhat ko ito", ok na din dba, gets me closer to Him and to our patron. Just a thought.

FX

2004-10-22T10:18:00.000+08:00

La ako masulat, mejo busy sa work eh, pro kakainis un mama sa FX kagabi nung pauwi ako, kumakanta ba nman tapos 10 octaves high ata na falsetto na ewan, sabi ba naman "I'm just a fool" na paulit ulit gus2 ko na sabihin sa kanya "Footangina mo! gago ka tumigil ka!" kaso d ko kaya gawin eh baka mapa away ako :D

Naisip mo ba?

2004-10-04T16:26:00.000+08:00

minsan ba naisip mo na sana d ka na lang magising? na sana ganun ang mangyari para tapos na paghihirap mo o para maiwasan na harapin ang problema mo? siguro lahat naman tayo naisip yun kahit isang beses lang sa buhay natin, well ewan ko lang kasi iba-iba naman tayo, ewan ko sa inyo, bahala kayo basta ako naisip ko iyon...na-iisip ko iyon...madalas.

siguro sasabihin ninyo mahina ako, na konting problema lang gusto na sumuko, eh pano nga kung mahina ako at hindi ko kaya yung problema so pano na? hindi ko naman na-iisip magpakamatay, ano ko tanga? masakit yun eh...tapos kesyo magbigti o maglaslas o uminom ng lason masakit pa rin yun saka pangit ka pa sa kabaong, yoko nga...kaya wish ko lang eh hindi na lang magising at least hindi masakit at fresh faced ka pa, unless tulo laway ka at nakanganga.

naisip ko din ok na mawala sa mundo kasi bilang auxi marami na akong natulungan, marami na akong napasaya at marami na akong naturuan na ibang auxi...naisip ko din na ok na mawala kasi naka tulong na ako sa mga magulang ko, hindi naman ako naging sakit sa ulo nila at pag nawala ako bawas na yung aaway sa kanila at papakainin nila.

pero naisip (ayan na naman yang word na yan!) ko na sapat na bang dahilan yan at yun dahilan na para takasan ang problema para i-dasal na mawala na ang buhay ko? habang sinusulat ko ito na realize ko na madami pa akong pedeng tulungan at mapasaya...marami pa akong pedeng gawin sa buhay ko... hindi lang sa PRM pero counted na iyon at bakit ako titigil sa mga nagawa ko na? maraming binigay sa atin na talent si Superfriend at alam ko na yung mga kaya kong gawin kaya alam ko marami pa Siyang plano para sa akin... kung panahon na natin malalaman naman natin siguro iyon at alam ko hindi ko pa panahon... saka marami pa din naman akong pangarap at gusto gawin sa buhay.

kaya sa ngayon medyo ok na ako, kelangan lang pala isulat yun na-iisip ko para mas maging malinaw yung nasa puso at isipan natin... hindi ko na wish na hindi na ako magising sa pagtulog ko...hindi ko na din wish na dalawin ako ni lotus feet sa kuwarto ko... naisip ko din (ang hilig ko yata mag-isip) kapag nawala ako... mabawasan na ng cute sa mundo...ang konti na nga lang namin eh pano na kayo dba?

pero teka nasagot mo ba yung tanong ko... naisip mo nga ba?

Solitude

2004-09-30T10:11:00.000+08:00

solitariness is painfull...
no one to share the joy with,
the pain which my heart is full
to angels in heaven i bid

help me pass this loneliness i feel
bring me someone i can be with
Lord, help me i pray and i kneel
answer the prayer that i heed

sometimes at night i talk to myself
for the lack of company i wish
just so i could release myself
from thoughts bugging me like a leash

thoughts of company i long for
and moments with friends that i miss
thoughts of love that i long for more
oh shit, please remove solitude's kiss

A Friend

2004-09-30T09:40:00.000+08:00

A friend is always there for you
through thick and thin he'll be true
a friend is more than a brother
with him you share sobs and laughter

Friend, companion on gimmick nights
though you may disagree and fight
for sure he'll listen to your plight
problems, he make it seem so light

Problems, he gives you advices
he doesn't push you through vices
he's like a wall you can lean on
a tree you can have shade upon

But why does it seem that lately...
your friendship I can not see
maybe you're just too naive...
you don't see I'm starting to leave

I did what I can to conceal...
the anger and regret I feel
`cause to you I'm understanding
but that can't always be happening

My best friend I want you to be
is it okay yes, no, maybe?
time, so swiftly does it fly
now I'm saying my goodbye